So here it is..
My heart is pounding. I keep looking back.
Im constantly told that the only way to move forward is to look forward and not turn back. But how is it you can experience so much and not allow yourself to remember where you’ve been, what you’ve done and with whom.
The older I get, more events (more life change) happens in a year then when I was much younger. The older you get, the bigger decisions become? I guess. Maybe everything is more of a big deal when your older. Although, that doesnt seem true at all. Sure, I delt with crap as a kid.. my family owns funeral homes… do you know what that can do to a kids social life?! But now, working, trying to establish a life with someone you care about.. finding and loving that person wholeheartedly.. being a believer and showing God’s love in everything and anything that you do… Holy sweet goodness. Not easy, folks.
I’ve made mistakes. Major mistakes. Head Desk Slamming mistakes. And what do you do after these mistakes? Cry your eyes out, wipe the tears, accept that you’ve been forgiven, and carry on with life. Crochet and drown yourself in Sour Patch Kids (my personal suggestion) But its really never that ‘easy’. Perhaps Im just gripping my new reality. I’m ready for this life to ROCK. Gosh, its been a sick and awesome 25 years so far, the past 2 years alone have been the very best yet. The very very best.
HA.. this whole post has been such a mind blurb.. If you are a friend, you’ll understand all of this.
Bless the Troops.
Amen.
