There's Something in the Water

And none for Gretchen Weiners…

Jason,

Reblogging this for you.. cause i know you will laugh!!

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My attempt at “Carrie” hair. Its very krimpy! I was so sick of the sleek hair always stuck to my face. I LOVE the body look and the mess look. Starting 2012 by going back in history for my doo!

Me & kitty getting ready for our lil party!

…more like kitty getting ready to spend the evening in the bedroom listening to us jam all night..

poor kitty.

My hope is that Bryan can recreate something along this idea..

I’d love to have it in the living room of our new apartment. Move countdown {30 days} !! We’re hiring instead of begging family members to move us. This big life change (for me) is happening on a Wednesday. WHYYYY is the first of the month on a Wednesday and WHYYY did I not check that before signing the darn lease. Shame on me. I’ve learned.

So Bryan Feuling will be teaming up with the moving company of his choice, my mother & stepfather, to move our little (big very full) life from Fairview, TX to Lewisville, TX. About an hour drive. 45 minutes if you take the right highway. [wink] Where will I be? Oh, I’ll be at my desk. I’ll wake up that morning in our apartment in Fairview and drive home to a new apartment in Lewisville. Guaranteed tears on the way to work. I LOVE our little apartment. Its in the BEST location. Quiet, mostly no neighbor noise.. I can walk to Bryan’s work and I’m across the street from everything I love. Nail salon, Popcorn store, Ice Cream place.. the beautiful musical fountains that I can see from our porch.. Loving it here. 

But my drive time to work will be 30 minutes (in traffic) instead of the teetering hour and a half if I’m lucky. So I’m fine with the move. VERY fine with the move. Plus, I’ll finally be closer to my friends and people who used to be in my life. So I’m very pleased with that. 

Anyways.. yes. I’d like Bryan to make this..

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Best Friends became Husband & Wife

So many people feel that we owe an explanation of why we decided to elope. Please know that we eloped not in spite of you.. not because we wanted to do in in secret.. not share the day with anyone.. We eloped because we wanted to be married. Simple as that.

We could lie and say that our ‘love flame was passionately burning’ and we couldnt bear  to be without each other. Fact of the matter is, we are best friends. Have been since the day we met, and because we both have been previously engaged, we quickly agreed that the idea of an engagement or traditional wedding was not in the cards. We are and have been far from a traditional couple. So with the support of our families, we married.

But first, we dated.

laughed. lived.

fought. cried.

discovered we’re both terrible at bowling…

and could live off of Mexican food..

We attended Church..

And supported each other when we were hurt the most..

We danced through the dirty, sweaty, starving & the drama..

And still chose each other everyday..

And when life is at it roughest..

We still choose to stand by each other and stay together.

Our first photo together {june 2011}

I know I wont always feel beautiful or perfect..

But I do know that I am loved just the way I am.

So why is it, that if I’m not looking my ‘Sundays best’, I’m treated as if I’m trash. Because what? I look that way to you? While finishing up my Christmas shopping with my Mom yesterday, we entered a store that we’ve been in many times before. We weren’t greeted, spoken to while walking to the check out counter, and had to wait for someone to notice us at the check out counter because the ladies had their backs turned. The manager finally turned around and asked if we needed help with anything. As we were getting the gift card and checking out, I tried to make conversation with the other girls behind the counter which went no where. They politely smiled and continued on with their conversation. I guess it was wrong of me to assume they’d bother talking to me. The fabulously put together manager had, what seemed like, perfect skin and airbrushed makeup, dark beautiful eyes and hair that probably took her 2 hours to do. I was fully comparing myself to her. My imperfections on my skin were no longer little things in my mind.. to me.. then and there.. they were the reason I was being ignored or even snubbed off. The fact that I was only wearing mascara and chap stick was throbbing in my head. My hoodie, my favorite hoodie, was now the worst thing I could have picked to put on that morning. What was I doing?! I was feeling fine before I walked into this place! I was in a fine mood.

I didnt allow this small event to ruin my night. I still enjoyed a good evening with my family while Bryan was at work. Bryan. Who has been working mainly nights all week, and I’ve been working from 6am to 5pm.. so we’ve hardly even crossed paths.

Maybe thats where all of this emotion is coming from. I’m jealous that Bryan has co-workers. He works with fabulous people, well put together people everyday. Then what.. comes home to me?

HECK YES! His WIFE! He comes home to the love of his life. The woman he chose to be with. Out of all the other girls he’s even been with or known. He chose me. So why WHY the heck do I allow myself to become overwhelmed with jealously and hurt when girls that he works with, or will be working with treat me badly? You may have just figured it out. Mom & I went into the HV Buckle. The store that Bryan is potentially moving to in February.

So what I dont have perfect skin, or fabulous hair or wear massive mounds of makeup. If I were to wear pounds of makeup, I’d break out even worse. My job starts at 7:30am. I need to leave our apartment by at least 6:15 or 6:30am. If I were to even attempt to doll up the way those girls do, I’d have to wake up before 5am! And we ALL know that wont happen. I’ll be putting my makeup on in the car once I finally make it to work anyways.

I guess what I’m trying to say is..

I’m not perfect. I never feel like I am. But at least I know that I am loved just the way I am. Imperfections and all. Treat people kindly no matter what. Be kind. Even if they look different.

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Diesel the Dog

Our new addition!

We adopted Diesel today from a 24hr adopt a thon and we couldnt be happier!! We’ve had him since 11am and Bryan’s been at work since 12noon. Diesel and I have been walking, napping, walking a bit more.. he’s currently asleep. (with a ball in his mouth) He’s a cuddler for sure! And just very happy to be in a home where he is loved!

More photos to come!

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